The funny thing is, I think when I took this photo my son was just lost in one of his stares like he tends to be sometimes, and happened to reach his hand up to wipe away some itch on his cheek. But the look of shock and surprise on his face seems to perfectly capture the state I have been in. Well, that we all have been in.
A few weeks ago we were approached with a possible job change for my husband, and just one week ago today found out that the whole thing was in fact going to go down. Which means, we are moving. Not out of China, but to a city far west of here.
The Man will be taking a Secondary Principal position at an International School within our company. It is an adventurous change for us to say the least. We are confident but nervous. Mostly we are just grieving and sad. Leaving people is something I would liken to pulling my toenails out one by one with a rusty pair of tweezers and then eating them with a bowl of cornflakes. That's right. Nauseating. Excruciating. I've felt sick for weeks and it has barely abated now that I've gotten through all the painful moments of telling our close friends.
I know there will be good things about this move. I can't really see them yet, but I believe they are there. In the meantime there are sweet friends to love on and spend time with before we leave, and a lot of details to work out.
I have been pretty exhausted to say the least as these events have transpired. Maybe that sounds dramatic but for me and for our family, a decision and a move like this takes a lot out of us. I have felt a bit like a dry well as far as inspiration goes. My energy has been zapped a bit by the shock of recent events, but I know it will return.
In the meantime, I'm thankful for the many many wonderful and kind words and affirmations from our friends and family here and far away. They have given us so many life words and we feel like storing them up somewhere for future days when we may need them. I'm so thankful for the sweet though pained responses from some of my closest friends when I know it cost them much. I'm thankful for this opportunity, though it feels more like a hole in the head just now. I'm thankful for sleep, and chocolate, and the goodness of one day at a time.